new me new goals

 Hi again blogger I do say you would not like me . But , I am no longer who I was I am going to write

more about personal growth. Money is not a fun topic at all. I can see capitalism in games and such.

    Yes furthermore , the post's that I have updated on 2025 were posted by me. But , why would I convince my own viewers just because of the sake of a silly game. I already went through too much. It's ok people love to cherry pick. But I forgot I have my own life and my own tree , that people can not achieve . I am pretty precious .Let's say its capitalism at its best. 

Regarding the old post  , I am this that .I think you all choose a side .Which would never be mine. Everyone needs to own their own freedom and actual privacy.

First thing is I would not talk about a few things . First thing is my actual name and details. I will not disclose my intentions if you try to be rude . I will not be hanging-out in the public rooms. As for the other

preposterous problems that no one can be solved . I will not be engaging in this atmosphere. But lets say this was onece upon a time ago. I will not correct onece .Let me do my own errors!

Anyway because this piece of metallic waste is just that. Why would I not talk about other things.Like hello . WE ARE ACTUAL HUMAN BEINGS!

Habbo IP Banned me because I called someone A BIMBO #HABBO

 ONECE UPON A TIME IN THE LAND OF HABBO.I SENT A PICTURE OF XI XIN PING TO 

HABBO CUSTOMER SUPPORT .BECAUSE I KEEP BEING BANNED ALL THE TIME.ONE TIME

I REALLY GOT TO LOGIN MY ACCOUNT

BUT I ALREADY BEEN ATTACKED BY THIS USER CALLED

https://www.habbo.com/profile/purple

ANYWAY THIS PERSON CAME OUT OF NOWHERE AND STARTED TO CALL ME A TRANS

I ALREADY SCROLLED THIS PERSONS PROFILE.I SEEN ALL THEIR BADGES . NOW THAT I ALREADY KNOW .ONE TIME THIS PERSON JUST CAME AT ME AND I CALLED ME TRANS

I ALREADY PUT THE PERSON ON IGNORE.BUT NOW I FOUND OUT THAT THIS PERSON HAS BULLIED ME .I WENT TO CALL THIS RANDOM BEACH A BIMBO BECAUSE THIS PERSON BULLIED ME FOR NO REASON FOR 30 MINS STRAIGHT AND APPARENTLY THIIS PERSON AKA PURPLE HAS A MODERATOR FRIEND .THEY ARE BOTH EVIL BULLIES JUST LIKE ALEXANDER THE ONE WHO REPLIES AT HABBO CUSTOMER SUPPORT.THEY ARE CAPITALIST THEY ONLY UNBAN YOU IF YOU PAY A LARGE AMOUNT OF MONEY.

Things I could never accomplished

     I wish i weighed less. 

                    I wish i finished college earlier.

                                                         I wish I could actually talk to a man that i could really understand.

                                       I wish that I was not bullied in highschool

        I wish I healed earlier

                       I wish I felt better back then.

               I wish i had more support

 

never sleeping at night anymore

Hi again welcome again if you are reading this...
I do not want to sleep at night anymore because i feel like there is an empty gap in mind
it is like there is something always missing . I am not lucky. But I do not know what to do anymore because I am crazy.

So anyway I still am lurking , dude life sucks but why do people keep being mean at me for no reason though. I forgot to change my profile picture . I think i will be posting more on my blogspot . I need to update my style. I relied alot on makeup lol. 😁. Hey anyway i think i want to loose more weight . People are so mean sometimes I really dont get why.Anyway people are being so rude to me . I really need to finish my intern book maybe i should do some coding too . I am so bored . I need to loose my weight you know i wonder if people still read my blogspot. 

Listen , I attracted alot of haters and I am starting to think that i need to express myself more with fashion . Work from seems weird though . I am scared if someone from college would read my blogspot , i want to keep this a secret with my friends. Maybe i could update on what im growing 🥬. I have been growing alot of stuff.

I CLOSE my eyes AND SEIZE IT ~ death grips

early birds

The early birds are chirping. I can not stop thinking about going to sleep , I have been ded ash

Things change way too fast

When things are not mainstream anymore. things were probably better back then and we wish we want that time back. I feel like social media is just a waste of time . Because I can not relate to other peoples achievements , In other words I am actually a looser. I feel more happier that I am far away from people who care too much. I feel more free as ever. But you know it's probably the same thing everyday. I want to do soo many things . Like organizing my trash, I feel like its very life changing. I am also staying away from friends. It is just because I have better things to do. I want to watch my seeds grow. I want to learn new things.Go offline stop caring about what others think . No more complaining just do . I am going to fill more things in life. I also want to keep recycling . Plant my own vegatables.

Anyway while people are being happy , You know . Does life become better, will i ever go back to college seems impossible. I need to move on . Because I have no choices. I dreamed I had too many long dreams, One time I painted the sea, I dreamed i drowned in my own painting. I no longer use instagram because I feel my privacy is long gone. I DO NOT want it anymore. I want to be free. I maybe a bad influence. But I have cried silently long enough , and my body craves attention and health. I do not need what others think. This is just same thing as playing dolls. I know people do not like it , But  I am much more happier alone.Music is ok . i actually have everything maybe I just have to leave forever. Because what if someone needs the things that they do not have . I feel non-existent

Why do people want to care too much anyway. Because as far as i know we do not need your opinion. I feel like i do not need soo much apps in my phone , Because phones are actually for emergency and receiving calls from family and the other important things.But Phones are actually garbage.I dont take pictures as much anymore , Because its not really important,Why do people even care what I am doing , Nosy people just really got to stay out of this.

why i hate my life

Everyone who is reading this . Everyone seems to hate me. Even I hate myself. Anyway the reason why I am making this is because I Do Not want to Vlog anymore. I noticed I keep attracting haters. I really do not like my family anymore. Why do they always tell me whats right. I think I actually lost my freedom. It's like I want to go far far far away from here. I find it hard to realise that everyone in my family is selfish. Why am I the one who is ignored. OMG

 someone joined me it is Benny!

People be like memes

More of making my life better

1.BEnny

2.Milo drink

sweet Nona is here too